I can't get out of my head

that eye glass dude saying "take gare" when we left. I saw his daughter and son come in and they were pretty cute. The girl was tall with curly hair. The boy was small with a mo-hawk.

Audition

I left after ballet, so I won't be a major.

I left because my new shoes from online were too tight, and someone took my number for auditioning I wore from me.

That or end of March

So the schedule goes

Fall - September October November
Spring - January February March
Summer - April May June

Wait that's not right.

Waiting

I could go now or wait at the last minute.

So essentially it's a month and a half to the schedule to start, but it's only about one from auditions in November. I could even wait for next summer.

I don't know if I should see the dance audition tomorrow.

I was contacted by someone.

The casting thing. I am supposed to ask if I have any questions.

It doesn't really make sense.

I have no idea why I had such stupidity. Maybe I can take the brunt.

About fat, that's to say something obvious. I don't want to hint at it around fat guys. Maybe girls seeking attention, or you can be like Orlando and every time you see me say trash.

I wonder who I have to blame.

I didn't know what else to say other than nigger and fat, stupid in a situation etc.


I guess nigger can only be used when referred to as a no-no word. No friends are as white as me as to be unaffected, which is too bad. Oh wait why did I say that? I know whose fault. It is important what you say not who says it.

I felt so bad about my laptop. Now I have a computer. I was starving. That's probably it. I don't know how it happened, but I felt forced. Then I thought about it and didn't say it.

Ways to Look Happier

I need to clean my stuff in the garage. I need to get one bag for garbage and hang the rest up!

My 38 sports bra is too tight. I guess I need 40 for this.

Dakota Fanning is great.

http://www.marieclaire.com/video/#v105887794001

I don't know ...

... it was killing me. I can call someone fat and it not be mean. It's the same as talking about someone being overweight.

I think it's wrong, but why do people kill me when I go thru a thinking process? Literally. How will I get out of trouble this time? I thought it was just funny and private, but maybe some people know.

People think I go into a reverie

when I think. Um no if I did that I would be a big mouth. That's why I've not been learning by allowing myself to think smoothly.

I accidentally farted when my dad got home.

We're going to Wal-Mart again today.

Worn Out

I'be been posting about sorry posts. I should keep it, the important stuff, to my blog. No avail for some reason tonight too. It's getting a nuisance. I didn't do anything tonight.

I literally still said things without knowing at all.

Like things happen to me that I didn't do really.

I forget. Did I really say something bad about how Dakota Fanning's grandma is like Britney Spears' mom? They're both dark ladies with a similar look, but at least dark in a noble way.

Well Jewish if probably as white as Italian.

Jewish seems particularly cool to any race.

[ULL] [bz] These Jewish people are white.

http://www.crownheights.info/index.php?itemid=4387 Also, south Asia is the Himalayas so it's white. The midsouthwest Chinese or Indochina is the people we don't like, the ones that seem to say like north Chinese you can't get better than that, not sure anymore what I was trying to say. Well southeast China looks more oriental. I think they thought China wasn't as oriental as Indian. Southeast http://www.chinataiwan.org/english/News/NaT/200912/W020091221315463549830.jpg Southwest http://news.xinhuanet.com/english/2009-03/10/content_10985517.htm The ones in north northwest China would look more Mongolian with white skin. By Japan they would have the skin that's so fine. I'm not sure why that is. Maybe a better diet.

Proof of Jewish

http://www.crownheights.info/index.php?itemid=4387

These people are white. I posted it on Tim Burton in IMDb because of the girl he has kids with.

Why I Think I'll Make It

The audition is a jazz combo after a ballet barre. I signed up for the night classes as well. My Dad just doesn't want me to be tired. It's 14 hours. I take 2 in the morning on the same 2 days each. If I get intermediate, I have the ensemble on the weekend.

Best

The only year I liked of high school was the 1st. College I liked the 1st 2nd and 3rd year, the whole thing for me.

Remember when the drama club was really big? There was a cute guy in it or so.

For instance after that, the only people in it were people I think mostly in Talented Theater. I got in my 3rd year, and we had a new teacher each from the first year for some reason.